Lutfi Needs A Wind Of Change

Lengai?...hmm...kdg2 betul gak. Not in the way that i have no feelings. It's just that i'm too rational. You can't force emotions into my soul. I feel it when i feel it. And i do cry once in a blue moon :) And i'm too relax sometimes. Sometimes? haha. Most of the times :p

Rational+relax = last minute work! I hate my last-minute-work disease. Suka bertangguh. Yeah it's a virus. Why am i keep procrastinating? I regret em all the time but still keep doing em i am. Are they mistakes or are they not? If they are mistakes then why am i not learning from my mistakes? It's crazy to know that i'd always settle all the problems in the end. That, sometimes terrifies me. Maybe i keep doing it coz i always able to save my ass no matter what - without cheating! ( a little maybe :p) Fikir-fikir balik, it's crazy. Terrifying. Gilos. How the hell did i get thru them! Somebody help me.. and oh, i've read once in a magazine that people who like to procrastinate will be prone to heart-attack. Maybe it's true. Somebody help me... T_T

Suka bertangguh = malas --> I think this is the name of the virus. A nicer way to put it is... i prefer to do something else first? muahaha. I haven't even ordered my kits, chemicals n stuffs for my final year project. Other students already done that 2 months ago! What am i doing most of the time? downloading and reading manga! Stupid lutfi! just fill in the damn form n go order those damn kits n chemicals! Setitik peluh pun tak luak lah! Bukannya susah pun!

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But hey, i'm procrastinating, remember? lalalalalaaa...baca manga lagi~~ (^_^)

Lutfi is BACK!

Aren't u amazed by me? last update was on 4th February! Hmm..well, still 2007...on second thought...not amazing enuff :p Maybe i should try to update once a year. Will I be considered amazing then? haha.

Template baru! Macam kanak-kanak riang sket :p huhu. There are times when u just want to go back being a child. Everyone has their 'inner child', i believe. Nevertheless, this template is just temporary. Sebenarnya dah bosan tengok template lama. Nak tukar, tapi tak jumpa yang best. Yang ni agak best, maka guna yang ni dulu ;)

Toooo many things happened within these 2-3 months. There are times when i was happy, excite, jovial. There are times when i was so damn tired, sad, "mental-block". I tried to live like a normal person anyway. It was tough, but it wasn't as difficult as i thought it would be. I could still smile and live my life. "Don't worry too much about the start and the end, just enjoy the process!" - quoted from myself :p

Despite the stab i got in the heart, despite the shot i got in the head, despite the shock waves racing thru my veins, i lived my life to the fullest. I hang out with my frens and family, I handled my society, I played dotA all the time thru LAN, I finished my reports n assignments, studied for my exam, I went to cherating with my frens, I even went to Kenyir and stayed on a boathouse! I smiled, and i laughed, despite all the pain. Despite all the pain.